奇怪的题目,乱七八糟的思绪,莫非是酒精还在作祟.不会啊,小小的一瓶啤酒,不在话下.晚上老爸做bg,pt的只有我一个,第一次,只有两个人,坐在大圆桌旁吃饭.当时我脑海里联想到的是好象只有电视剧里富豪们才会这样排排座,当然我面前摆的不是什么鲍参翅肚,而是几样家常小菜.不知什么时候开始,习惯和爸爸一起喝酒,叫了两瓶啤酒,然后很不文雅地吹喇叭,因为躲在包房里也不用顾忌那么多,难得粗狂一回.长久以来在别人眼中我总是一个淑女.的确,从小到大我都是个中规中矩的人,在人前不曾放肆地笑,痛快地哭,或做出些让人跌破眼镜的事,这样的一种生活状态变成了一种习惯,却也并不是我故意为之.淑女等同于乖乖女,省心又省事,自然受长辈喜爱,但太过淑女却难免给别人一种矫柔造作之嫌,觉得你很假.所以我并未因此而欢喜过,有时也很诧异自己为什么就不曾年少轻狂,做出些离经叛道之事.过了早恋,逃学的年纪,这些也纯粹是胡思乱想罢了.爸爸酒量不错,我多少也遗传到了这方面的基因,所以这点酒除了带来两片红晕外,对我毫无影响.名副其实的酒足饭饱后,和老爸到处走走,喜欢去江边,尤其是这样凉爽的夜晚,江风会把头发吹得很飘逸,也不会像夏天那样给人感觉湿湿的.爸爸让我闭上眼睛幻想一下旁边是湛蓝的海水而不是浑浊的江水,这样感觉会更好.其实,是不是海水并不重要,我喜爱这个地方,是因为那有太多美好的回忆.在大堤边偶遇一高中校友,多年未见,我还是从背影认出了此MM.当然MM认不认识我就不得而知了.虽然我和爸爸很快就从身后赶超了她,但是我们走了约300米后决定杀个回马枪,因为我没看清她身边的GG到底长什么样.令我颇为失望的是再也难寻他们的踪影,途中爸爸还突然指着远处说是不是在那里.笑,原来老爸也八卦的很.逛了很久,走了好多条街,也聊了很多,爸爸说找工作辛苦了,我说人都是这样过来的;爸爸说老了要组织个老年自行车队,我还是笑,问:就是后座插个小黄旗的那种吧;爸爸说你每次打电话回家都可以觉察到你的心情,我说人大了总有烦心事;爸爸说希望你简单一点,怀念小时侯整天乐呵呵的小女儿,我说我有时会烦躁是因为我长大了,有了自己的思想也有了自己的烦恼;爸爸说不要女儿工作太辛苦,我说我没多大的野心,就想等你退休了帮你开个小茶馆.逛了两个小时,也算是暴走一族了.别人眼里的我是个不折不扣的淑女,用功塌实的书女,将来呢?成熟的女子?那是必然的吧.  WA HAHAHA,狂笑一通,用那种从大学室友那学来的市三女中式笑声,然后说:其实,我不想做淑女很多年.

 which is better?having no choice or having to make a choice.sometimes it's better to have only one way to go,make the determination and advance bravely.While standing on the crossroads,always being confessed with the question,'which way to take?'I will be fearful for missing the incredible scenery on the other road,and begin to be suspicious of my choice.Whatever,time's to make a decision.and once decide it,hold up to it!
 Thanks my friend,who tells  me that today is May 20th,right,13:14,it's the perfect moment to tell your beloved and sincere friends :ich liebe dich. 5201314

All at once, I finally took a moment and I´m realizing that
You're not coming back And it finally hit me all at once
All at once, I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell My eyes began to swell,
And all my dreams were shattered all at once
Ever since I met you
You´re the only love I´ve known
And I can´t forget you
Though I must face it all alone
All at once, I´m drifting on a lonely see
Wishing you´d come back to me
And that´s all that matters now
all at once, I´m drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once
All at once, I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else´s arms,
And all my dreams were shattered, all at once
All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else´s day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories,
all at once

2004年的最后一天,有时真的很想淡化一下时间概念.尤其是当05年即将来临的时候.因为到那时我的学生时代将划上休止符.突然之间,发现自己很舍不得离开那个美丽纯净的校园,那个有着童话般建筑的校园.我想毕业后乃至很多年后,有一幕在我脑海中仍会非常鲜活:天空飘着雪花,和同室密友合撑一把淡蓝色的伞,手中捧着热腾腾的早饭,刻意放慢前进的步伐,周围的一切让我们沉醉,走进教室才发现原来英语课半小时之前就开始了.对于我,大学四年不曾有太多的年少轻狂,风花雪月,但有这些就已经足够了.未来有着太多的不确定,只有现在才是最真实的.从现在起好好珍惜我所拥有的一切.

     Many nights we pray with no proof anyone could hear.
　　In our hearts a hope for a song we barely understood.

　　Now we are not afraid, although we know there‘s much to fear.
　　We were moving mountains long before we knew we could

　　There can be miracles, when you believe.
　　Though hope is frail, it‘s hard to kill.

　　Who knows what miracles, you can achieve.
　　When you believe somehow you will,
　　You will when you believe.

　
　　In this time of fear when prayer so often proves in vain.
　　Hope seems like the summer bird too swiftly flown away.

　　Yet now I‘m standing here, my heart‘s so full, I can‘t explain.
　　Seeking faith and speaking words I never thought I‘d say.

　　There can be miracles, when you believe. When you believe
　　Though hope is frail, it‘s hard to kill.


　　Who knows what miracles, you can achieve. You can achieve
　　When you believe somehow you will,

　　You will when you believe.
　　

　　They don‘t always happen when you ask, uh.
　　And it‘s easy to give in to your fear, uh. Oh
　　But when you‘re blinded by your pain,
　　can‘t see your way safe through the rain.
　　Thought of a still resilient voice says love is very near, oh. Oh


　　There can be miracles Miracles
　　When you believe Boy, when you believe, yeah)
　　Though hope is frail 　Though hope is frail

　　It‘s hard 　It‘s hard to kill Hard to kill, oh, yeah

　　Who knows what miracles
　　You can achieve You can achieve, oh
　　When you believe somehow you will

　　Somehow, somehow, somehow
　　Somehow you will I know, I know, know
　　You will when you believe When you

　　

　　You will when you 　You will when you believe

　　

　　When you believe 　When you believe